the start of a brand new relationship

The first blog post is always awkward. It seems like you are committing to something that is very personal and private yet it is out there for everyone to see. You fumble over your thoughts trying to make sense of everything. Trying to compose sentence that not only sounds good in your head but also on your blog. Making everything flow seamlessly is a VERY hard thing to do. Especially for me since it seems like all of my thoughts are all very fleeting. It comes and go as the winds does. Scratch that, since the effects that the "wind" have on me is like a hurricane. Kind of a ridiculous and an over exaggerated comparison, I know. And don't even get me started on when I have my PMS. My point is that______ ... I truly do not know what I am doing. I guess i'm just like every other teenager out there. Lost, confuse and scared shi#$%*ss at what and where the ominous future will bring us. I just feel like i just need to write everything down. It just feels really comforting to have a place where I can bitch all I want. It is basically a very public diary. Or a journal as some of you may call it.